I care.

I've been crying...for about an hour now. I just stopped because I told myself to calm down because my nose was getting too blocked.

But anyway! 

One of my friends messaged me, saying, "...NOBODY CARES..." 

And so that really hit me. It made me realize how annoying I am. How pointless my life is even. How nobody really cares. Literally. I go on and on and on about pointless stupid things and obsess over things...way too seriously. Like, if I saw someone really hot, damn I'm gonna try and find them on the internet with all the information that I have and talk about it to my friends, they would get annoyed, like always. 

So, if you're ever feeling like this; like nobody cares about you and stuff like that. I suggest, talking to your most trusted friend about it, they will care. 

Or: 

• Kids Help - Information on emotional and mental health and contact details: http://bit.ly/19eiw93
• Mind Check - Information for teens and young adults about mental health and addiction:
  http://bit.ly/HQmrDe
• Samaritans - Someone to talk to in a time of need? Trained professionals can chat to you:
  http://bit.ly/1gDNAaR
• Beat - Information, Support & Helpline for people with eating disorders:
  http://bit.ly/1aAO2yu
• Mind - Information, Support & Helpline for mental health illness:
  http://bit.ly/1akO14Q

ALL of these websites help a lot. Trust me. 

Or if you don't want to try those, you could just say to yourself, "If no one cares, I'm gonna have to start caring for myself. If no one cares, I'm going to. Because if no one cares and there's no one left, who would believe in me?"

I'm not really good at comforting people, but if you need someone, message me on Tumblr:
sex-ualfrustration.tumblr.com. I'll be your friend! I'd love to! (I'm really friendly, I swear.) 

Sometimes, it's okay to be sad. You just gotta cry sometimes, it helps, to let it all out of your system, and just think about what your next step is. 

I love you. And I care. 

:) Elliot Perfect going offline xxx 

One Of The Best Days. Ever.

So we went to the city today (by "we" I mean me and my family).
When we got there, as I walk through the first clothing shop in the mall, there was my best friend (who is also my crush, he's there for Christmas and New Year). We'll call him Peanut Butter...because peanut butter is yummy...the actual food, not this person. You know what I mean.
Anyway, we walk around to the food court, and he still follows me.

"What are you doing?" I ask him.
"Nothing."
Silence.
"So you're just following me..."
"I've got no friends!"

When we reached the food court, he said that he'll just go because he didn't want to interrupt our lunch. So he went.

So we had our lunch, and then there was this hot, buffy, tanned and tall guy and had this gorgeous smile that takes you to heaven. And his voice was like sex. (I think my brother caught me checking him out.)

Then we parted, I was with mum, until I saw Peanut Butter again. Then he just hung around until I asked if he wanted to shop with me, he said, "Sure, I've nothing better to do."

We first went to JayJays, which is the clothing shop I saw him in. I liked nothing there, there was nothing, they were either too expensive, too ugly (no offence to the designers) or too big. So then we went to Whitcoulls and there was no books either. Well, I saw Girl Online and the Percy Jackson series and the Heroes of Olympus series (HIGHLY RECOMMENDED) but I already have those. Then, Peanut Butter just sat there. On the ground. Because apparently he was following me shop and he didn't wanna decide where to go. I had to decide to get him off the ground. Sigh, embarrassing friends.

So we shopped more, and more. It was soooo awkward because I'm a complicated shopper, I am awkward and boring and lame.

Factorie was our next stop. The shop the hot guy was working in. At first, I was pretty bummed out when I didn't see him standing where he was before, then I saw him assisting the customers and gaaah. Peanut Butter reminded me to get new pants because mum told me to. Again, I didn't like anything there (except Peanut Butter and the hot guy). Then Peanut Butter, ended up getting pants, instead of me. While I was waiting for him to get changed. I was walking around awkwardly like a lost puppy and did I embarrass myself for being me. (I took quick glances of the hot guy). When we were about to leave. I was pretty bummed out, because, we all know that seeing hot people from far away places, are really depressing because there is 0.99% chance of seeing them again. Unless, you are really confident then just talks to them straight away then just instantly asks for their number and their Facebook and Twitter and everything else.

After not a lot of shopping. We went to sit at the parking lot with my family friends, waiting for my family. Until we decided to get big boxes of pizzas for ourselves. While eating our pizzas, he was talking to one of the kids of our family friends'. Then they were laughing together, and I swear, in that moment. I forgot every other person that I liked or thought was hot, and just loved him. Sigh.

He rang his mum to keep her from worrying, which I thought was so adorable!!! Then his mum asked about me. She apparently wanted to meet me at the beach party tomorrow, but I was only there for a day, so bummer.
In my mind I was asking myself: Who would want to meet me?!

After a whole lot of laughs and flirting. He had to go. So to wrap it all up. I had one of the best days ever. Shopped and ate pizza with my crush. What more could you ask for?!

:) Perfect Elliot going offline xxx

P.S. there was a conversation somewhen that went like:
"I know why you wanted to see me today!" -Peanut Butter.
"Why?"
"Because you can't stand 3 days without talking to me!"
I laughed.
"Don't worry. I can't stand 3 days ignoring you as well."
Best friend-ly love <3

Worse Christmas!

So, so, I hope you all are having or had a lovely lovely Christmas, unlike me.

So first of all, I had to altar serve. (For those who don't know altar serving is when you are the little people that do the little stuff for the priest, search it up, I am very bad at explaining things.) I barely even knew what I was doing, and embarrassed myself in front of a lot of people. One of the people I like were even there, so face palm. And then I almost tripped because we had to wear a long beige cloth thingy that was so long! When I tried walking it just kept folding, so I had to hold it to try not to fall, then I had to hold the candle with two hands as well, so tried my best, I didn't trip though, so phew!

So then, we go to my friend's house for dinner. And ended up staying there until 3 in the morning, and I actually just got back from there, not 10 minutes ago.

When we got there, you could feel the unwelcome-ness in the air. Like, I know you want a Christmas of your own for once since we got to New Zealand, but b#$%^, you don't have to say to me a thousand times that you didn't want us here. I didn't choose to spend Christmas there. My father and her father did. Not me. GAH! She is such a bleeping cow!

When I was opening my present, there was this lady that was telling me to hurry up and kept saying "Oh, guys, we'll be here until tomorrow." I was so pissed.
I'm one of those people that have to take out the wrapping carefully and not just go dive in and rip everything.
Why was she even watching me unwrap my presents? Why should she care how I unwrap my present? It's my bleeping present, lady!

Anyways, Happy Christmas!

:/ Elliot Perfect going offline xxx

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Christmas is upon us! Well, in New Zealand it's Christmas Eve!

...I am confusing myself.

But, it's Christmas Eve in New Zealand and I wish you all a great great great Christmas and a very happy New Year!

I hope you get really spoiled rotten! and get full with lots of Christmas foods!

:) Elliot Perfect going offline xxx

My Dog And His Friend.

Okay. So I was just jamming to Christmas songs, because Christmas is in two days (!!!) and so I was bored, I'm usually on Tumblr, but I decided to not be on Tumblr that often. So I was scrolling down on my Facebook News Feed and came across a post that had a picture of my dog and the dog we dog-sit (?) saying that they have been bugging the walkers and if they see them again wondering around, they'll have to put them down.
The gates are always closed because common sense, no one wants their dogs out and about so they either get out by themselves, somehow, or they get let out by someone.
But anyway, this post said something along the lines of not being impressed and getting "bugged" by my dogs because she was walking and they came across her way. And so the whole town knows about it now, and people are commenting things like:
"Report them"
"They need to be put down"
"No impressed either"
And this one beeping lady commented something along the lines of: They need to be reported, my dog got put down because she/he escaped my property.
What the actually frickle frack is wrong with people in this town?! My dogs, might get put down because her's got put down?! WHAT?!
Spikey and Ziggy doesn't know how to attack. Spike's attack is sniffing you and following you until you get annoyed and Spike is a Jack Russel and another type of dog cross breed thingy. Ziggy's attack is licking your ankles and kissing you until you get annoyed and Ziggy is a fury sausage type of dog! They don't know how to attack!

So in conclusion, my dogs might get put down if they are seen wondering around the streets again, and come across walkers' ways.
DO PEOPLE GET TO BE PUT DOWN AS WELL WHEN PEOPLE ANNOY YOU?!
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
I was so happy and now I'm all depressed.

:( Elliot Perfect going offline xxx

Book Review

"Girl Online"

By Zoe Sugg, Peguin Books, 2014 

My Rating: [insert 5 stars] 

Penny Porter, an "almost 16 year old", is a famous anonymous blogger from Brighton, UK. Penny blogs about her life pretty much; boys, family, and anxiety/ her panic attacks.

When her life went from bad to worse, her parents takes her to New York City. Now, as I said, Penny has anxiety attacks, so she's worried it might strike at her when she's on the plane.

When she meets her "inciting incident". Noah's his name. Gorgeous, guitar player American. Before Penny knew it, she's fallen in love, and blogged every moment of it on her blog.

During their adventure, Penny learns a lot about how to get better at controlling her anxiety. From Noah! How cute, right? He helps her get better? Sigh.

Noah takes her to his most favorite parts of New York, personal favorites.

Soon she finds out Noah has a secret too. A secret that might ruin Penny and her blog- and her closest friend ever.

I think Zoe wrote such an amazing book. I finished it today, and now missing it! I want more! I demand more!
This book has its own ways of giving advice to people who has panic attacks, just like her, how to control the attacks. I personally think it is very helpful.
Now, I don't have anxiety, so I am pretty lucky because from what I've read, it's pretty hurtful.
I recommend this book 100%. It is an amazing book, it's a hooking, romantic, helpful book.

Recommended to 13+ year olds.

:) Elliot Perfect going offline xxx

Some Not Good Photography From Me (featuring my best friend in the last photo)

:) Elliot Perfect going offline xxx